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Assalamualaikum~



Woww~ it has been like ages i didn't update my blog.the last post was like 6 months ago?
yeah~ that's how busy i was.*kunun lah busy sangat kaaaaannn*

the reason why i finally back in here is because...
i'm boring of studying.YEAH.LIKE SUPER DUPER BORED.
*padahal nanti exam tataw lah ape je yg aku jawabkan.heh~*
tapi moga-moga baik-baik lah semua nya.
have to face exams when you're in the process of transitioning your age is not that fun.
like you have to 'muhasabah' yourself and in the same time you have to answer exam's questions?
not fun at all.
but i guess,that's how my life is.
full of sacrifices.and bruises(?) *tetibe.haha*

anyhow,please do pray for my friends and me,pretty please?
mari skor kencang-kencang,y'all!amiiinnnn~ :D


And the reason why i'm writing here
*though i don't really wanna write actually since i don't have anything interesing to be shared(?)*,
is because someone asked me what do i want for my birthday?
like,
saya sangat lah tak reti nak mintak-mintak sebenarnya. *ai pemalu kowtttt.kekeke~ :p*
but anyway,
before i present to you my request,
let's read my hiQayat first.. *ecewahh*



It has been almost a year.
yup,since last year.
I've been knocked down to my foot,
real hard.
The last time i remembered of feeling this way is like,
what,
6-7 years ago?

It was hard.
the recovery.
It's not something you wanna embrace when you get older.
The memories
full of bruise.scars.tears

And thank God,
with God's help,i was able to recover
to be a human,
with heart.back.
HAHA. -.-'

And a year ago,
it hit me again.
the pain.the disappointment.
broken.

And it happened when i was trying to draw the path of my future.
trying to rearrange everything in my life.
Suddenly it destroyed the 'budding-to blossom' hope.

And i feel useless.empty.
like a wrenched,full of dirt,old cloth.

i pushed everyone away.
becoming introvert.don't wanna mingle with anyone.
and eventually i pushed YOU too.

Yet you are still here,
being patient
sucking and receiving every tantrums and harsh words and actions i throw towards you.
feeling-less-ly throwing everything away.
ME.

Tak bahagia pun sebenarnya ada hati macam nih.
Yeah,i know it doesn't sound cool or macho,
but just want to remind others,
don't be like me.
cause you will eventually hurt people around you.
and YOURSELF.

Been passing through this kind of life for a year,
there are lots of things that i learned.

Thus,
this is my request~

Please,
do pray for me
that i can become a good woman.
a good daughter,sister,friend
a doctor too,insyaAllah.

And please pray for me,
to have a HEART
an unwavering heart,
a heart that can truly loves,cares and be loyal.
to someone.
to the ONLY ONE.
unconditionally.
that can accept any weaknesses,any flaws,any mistakes
and still be in love with that person.

I know this is cliche,
but i wanna be like everyone else too.
to have a bright, beautiful future.
not a blurred one.

That's all i want for my birthday.

I'm turning 22 years old,
and i want to have a life with a HEART.

ThanQ~ (^_~)

^notametacarpal : Still i wanna thank God for the loves that He showered me,for giving me great family,friends,teachers,surrounding,educations and life.thank you for leading me to this path.make me become ME.Alhamdulillah and thank you. :)

^notametacarpal(2) : I'm coming home right after the final exam.doakan ai skor kencang-kencang,nak naik kapal terbang hati tenang! *winkwink*

entry-lap-habuk

Assalamualaikum~

Selalu terlintas,
What if i suddenly die?
Or,like,
Dying
Trying to fight for my life?

We are not talking about btapa separuh nyawa kte stdy siang mlm smpai kuar mata panda sbb exam
Or tcungap2 daki bukit tnpa warm-up sbb da btahun2 lgsung tak exercise kcuali jalan kaki sbulan skali hny dgn jarak 1km.heh. -_-
I kn0w it feels like dying too.phew~

But,
What if suddenly you fall sick
N you're not sure whether you can recover n still be living
Or it'll take away you life.
It's either you live
Or you die


Hv u ever think of dat?



To be continued...



*gedik kaaaan?i knowww :p *




^notametacarpal : ini kre mcm entry warm-up lah.kang lau tcungap2 separuh nyawa kang tak ke naya.haaa~  

^notametacarpal (2) : tebal betul habuk kat cni.heh.ini pun rjin nk 'lap' sbb da abis exm pny pasal. *clapclapclap* (baca:laplaplap) er~ 

^notametacarpal (3) : ini juga adalah entri testing,testing.1,2,3 from my android.hihi. :D

Wondering~

Assalamualaikum~

Dua malam weekends yang lepas,
tanpa sengaje 'berjaya' buat sahabat-sahabat saya mengalirkan air mata.
bukan bangga,memandangkan ianya terjadi tanpa niat,
tapi saya melihat dua occasion berbeza atas satu sebab yang sama.
berbeza situasi dalam kisah-kisah mereka,
tapi masih atas sebab ITU.

malam tadi,
berbicara dengan cik buah hati (1) sambil study patho,
dan malam sebelum nya,
ber'pillow-talk' dengan cik buah hati (2) dan (3),
akhirnya melalui mereka,
baru saya kenal hati sendiri.
hah!
*dan rasa bengong giler -.-' *

dan selepas mem-pathetic-kan diri sendiri
terhilangkan macho yang selama ini saya slogankan(?)
lalu,
saya katakan pada hati,
biarlah,
DIA MAHA TAHU.
*sedangkan selama nih pown aku ckp gitu jugak.hek!*

satu soalan yang saya utarakan pada cik buah hati (1);
'masih,qus tabley nk predict or prepared with any backup plans,what if,it really happens-
will I be sad or will I feel relieved and won't regret'
dan dalam perjalanan pulang,
saya katakan pada hati,
'Ah,I'll be totally fine if that happens.HE knows best.I think I can handle it.'
tak pasti samada ianya jawapan jujur dari hati atau sekadar mahu menyedapkan kalbu.

Namun,
bila tiba-tiba DIA takdirkan sesuatu yang tak pernah saya duga,
terus,
saya HILANG jawapan itu.

and I wonder what's the reason behind all these.
what HE has fated and planned for me.
what HE wants to show me.
To make me strong
or to show my weaknesses?
or both?

O God~ please help us,please~

welcome,spring!make me happy,will u? <3

notametacarpal : i just realized that,










i guess my answer was too rush - it is not an honest answer.
and i HATE the fact.


notametacarpals (2) : wondering,where will it lead.

Alkisah hulubalang2 dan dayang cik Q

Assalamualaikum~

Sorang balas msj i yg penuh kasih sayang dgn hanya dua ayat.

Agy sorang da pndai ade awek da.awek ala-ala pakistan baq hang.padan la x nyempat jer nk g skola.hek.
*sile admit yg i agy c0mel dr awek v.huahua*

Yg agy sorang plak demam rindu kat i smpai tdo wad 2malam.

Sorang nih wat muke bsalah smbil ckp 'eh silap.tsilap' bsama hands-up ble dgn jaya nya mgunakan tangan pemusnah[dgn nada doraem0n kuarkan alat magik die] beliau memecahkan bola ksyangan abg beliau.

Yg kcik skalik da tnjukkan ciri2 bakal chef terunggul dgn mencipta gulai henpon Nokia.
*laporan terkini menyatakan bahawa inche Nokia masih agy koma.hua~ *

Konklusi nye,

Bertuah sungguh lah adik2 aku nih.
Heh!


Tp kak long tetap syg korang! <3



Notametacarpal : entri nih ade berbaur homesick ke?eh?
Notametacarpal (2) : entri ini juge adalah entri testing.sekian.

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L.I.E

Assalamualaikum~


You are not the same person that i knew before
Not the same one anymore.

Past will always remain as past.
And I hope the future will be better for us.

Will always pray the best for you,
although you hurt me like hell.

separuh dekad yang dulu
yang aku ada bersama dulu
moga ada 'saham' yang baik-baik
yang membantu kau jadi kau hari ini.

wallahi~ bangga dan bahagia
melihat dari jauh kau jadi kau hari ini
doa aku,
biar DIA tetapkan yang baik-baik juga buat kau
sampai syurga sana.

tapi maaf,
kau dah aku 'tendang' jauh-jauh dari aku.

Peace yo!
:)







notametacarpal(1) : kene tipu hidup2.kau tahu apa rasa nya?taper,biar DIA tentukan yang terbaik. 
notametacarpal(2) : i won,i guess.yeah! =]

for the Z of Furawa4!

Assalamualaikum~

tataw ape sal mood ari nih terkurang macho plak(?)

tapi dah bape ari sedar diri yang saya makin 'kejam' dengan sahabat saya yang sorang nih.

lalu,saya nak buat confessions...

"For all those times you stood by me 

For all the truth that you made me see 

For all the joy you brought to my life 

For all the wrong that you made right "

terima kasih banyak2 sebab selalu dengar royanan qus

*nih jasa paling terbahek yang qus tataw nk balas guane*

terima kasih sebab selalu dengar kecelaruan dan ke'lampi'an feeling alien qus

terima kasih jugak sebab bertahan dengan hati alien qus yang macho *ehem3*

yang kadang-kadang menyerabutkan diri sendiri n orang lain. *hek! -.-' *

"For every dream you made come true 

For all the love I found in you 

I'll be forever thankful, baby 

You're the one who held me up 

Never let me fall 

You're the one who saw me through 

Through it all"

Dan terima kasih jugak sebab kadang-kadang ape yang awk ucapkan

buat qus ketemu dengan jawapan yang qus tak sangka qus jumpa

:)

"You were my strength when I was weak 

You were my voice when I couldn't speak 

You were my eyes when I couldn't see 

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach 

You gave me faith 'cause you believed 

I'm everything I am 

Because you loved me, ooh, baby"

Terima kasih sebab selalu layan gedik qus

'Awaaakkk~ dari awk *dotdotdot* baik awk masak nasik goreng untuk qus'

'Awaaaakk~ qus tak larat lah nk makan.tolong buat bubur boley?'

'Awaaaakk~ tolong belikan *segala-bende-atas-muke-bumi* boley?sori nyusahkan'

dan segala macam awakkkk~ lah.heh!

tapi tetap jugak awak yang seorang nih layankan aje sume permintaan qus.

:)

dan segala nasihat,kata-kata,mesej,gelak ketawa

yang qus tak mampu nak quote sebab banyak sangat.hik :D

terima kasih jugak sebab jadik sumber ketawa qus(?) n the other F and A *huaaa~*

and gomennasai,

sebab selalu sangat usik awak,

buli awak,

bebel kat awak,

nyakat awak,

gelakkan awak,

buat muka bila awak buat hambar,

buat hambar yang lagi hambar dari awak(?),

selalu kalahkan awak dalam ape2 pown yang qus gado ngan awak *yeahhh! *
dan segala dosa yang sedar dan tak sedar
selama dari umur belasan sampai lah baru nk masuk puluhan nih. *koff-koff*
[muke-serius-tak-bersalah]

mohon maaf halal dunia akhirat untuk sume nye ye,

roomy terbahek sy, Nur Izzati Lukmanulhakim?

^^kali nih qus siap belog-kan terus mintak mahap qus kat awak,so dat pas nih qus tak lupe bile qus mintak maaf ngan awk.hik~

^^maka nya,bile-bile kte gado or qus buli awk overdose pas nih,qus recycle je lah entri nih.aci x?hihi

^^nih je dulu buat masa nih.banyak agy bende len qus nk tulis sal awk,tapi yang len2 qus tulis tym malam bachelorette party awk,ok?weee~

^^ owh~ agy satu.sori sebab tak pandai buat entri suweet2 macam orang lain.pandai buat entri sengal je.buat comel dpn awak qus pandai lah. *muke-comel-dalam-mimpi-je lah-tapi*

^^to the F and the A,nti qus buat entry special utk korang jugak.tp kne kasik qus buli korang jugak lah cm qus buli zati.eh(?) :D

^^sayang korang lah,Furawa4! ♥

Dreams~

Assalamualaikum~

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*kalau nak karaoke same2 lah.huaa~ *

translation

seperti biasa,awal januari adalah masa terbahek untuk menzombiekan diri.alhamdulilah sem satu tahun tiga nih tader exam berturut macam anak-anak tahun satu mahupown tahun dua.weehuuu~

tapi segala lambakan material yang melambak masih lagi mampu membuatkan saya meroyan.tahniah! -.-'
[statement nih suh korang doakan ai dpt skor kencang2.ok.taknak doa gitu,meh mahapkan salah silap dosa ai kat u all.bisa enggak? :D ]

*da taw kauuu banyak bende nk study yang g update belog nih hapesaaalll? *
^ bese lah.tym2 tengah meroyan nih lah nk mcarik medium untuk melepaskan royanan.eheh. ^
*baiikk~ -.-' *

ok.lets make it short.

selamat meneruskan langkah-langkah mengejar mimpi-mimpi yang kalian impikan sejak dari dulu.mungkin jugak dari semalam(?)
moga dengan semakin bertambah tahun,dan semakin pendek usia,makin matang,makin bersemangat,makin berfaedah dan makin tak emo. *oppss*

dan moga makin menghargai.diri sendiri.diri insan-insan yang menjadikan kalian adalah kalian hari nih.even yang patahkan ati korang pown korang kne hargai n ucap terima kasih taw?sebab trained korang jadik macho lagi gagah perkasa. *hiyak!*

juga moga[untuk kali yg ke3 -.-'],tak hilang dan sesat dalam mencari diri sendiri buat sape-sape yang tgh sesat mencari apa makna diri dan hidup kat dunia nih.doa banyak-banyak pada DIA.kalau hati awak hilang,mintak pada DIA,sebab DIA yang pegang hati makhlukNYA. :)



“Wahai Tuhan kami, limpahkanlah kesabaran kepada kami, dan matikanlah kami dalam keadaan Islam (berserah bulat-bulat kepadaMu)”.

"Keep on pushing,step by step
keep on trying,day by day"

Let's keep pushing ourselves to be the best in HIS sight,worth for HIS jannah~ (^_~)

notametacarpal (1) : dapat melayan anime memang lah satu nikmat.alhamdulilah. *boleh ke gitu? -.-' *


notametacarpal (2) : bakal pulang ke tanah air bertemu satu batalion buah hati pengarang jantung terchenta agy dua minggu.heee~ :D 


notametacarpal (3) : pada sape2 yang nk ajak sy date kat msia cuti nanti,sile roger awal2.makasihhhh~ :D


notametacarpal (4) : baru tahu betapa seksa nye tak sihat tym exam.maka,jaga lah kesihatan anda.batuk berkokok tym exam is NOT MACHO at all.hek~


notametacarpal (5) : selama nih telan painkiller yang ai ingatkan mampu dengan jaya nya menghilangkan migrain ai.td google2,painkiller untuk migrain ai tuh side-effect nye is headache.APEKAAAAHHHHHH??Y U NO TELL ME EARLIER???? *failed pharma sungguh aku -.-' *


notametacarpal (6) : abis dah.bai.